Mother's Day at our house is typical-I go shopping for what I want then tell my family "thanks" for the wonderful gifts they gave me, while they all have a perplexed look on their faces. I'm sure they were thinking, "Mom has officially lost it. We didn't buy her all those clothes. We made her this coupon booklet, this certificate for good behavior that I will ignore, and dad bought her flowers. Yet, we haven't even given them to her yet." :)
The day was a nice one. We were able to spend some time with my mom and with Trevor's mom, and though it was nice, the soul-touching moment came with the gift we gave my sister.
I have mentioned before how my sister is a birth mom. While things are going well with Lyndi and the whole adoption, emotions are still raw and very much at the surface. Sporty and I decided to get her a necklace with a mustard seed in it.
The scripture that goes with it is: Matthew 17:20 "And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief; for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you."
Sometimes I feel my sister loses sight of some promises that were made to her (we are all human) and when I saw this necklace I knew we needed to give it to her and remind her to keep the faith. Well, on Mother's Day Sporty gave her the necklace and said, "Remember to keep having faith." Lyndi immediately burst into tears. Sporty felt AWFUL and came running to me and told me how guilty he felt and he was sorry. After I explained WHY she was teary and reassured him that he had not done anything wrong, he was able to go on his merry little way, but not before getting a hug from his Auntie.
I had a thought that went through my mind at that moment: My sister still needs our support and she needs our love and prayers. After all, we all get caught up in the world and sometimes can't see the big picture of our Heavenly Father's Plan. I'm no different. I feel guilty that I'm not that crafty mom, that creative mom, that awesome mom who NEVER yells at her kids. I'm grateful for a talk that was given in Sacrament Meeting yesterday that did not make me feel like a failure, but instead gave me hope that I don't have to be Martha Stewart to be an awesome mom. And in all honesty, I've never tried to be Martha Stewart or anyone like that-but I wish I was more apt to "play" with my kids. I'm the mom that coaches my kids' sport teams, that pitches to my kids to hit, that wants a day all by myself, that loves my kids but am soooooo ready for them to go to bed by 8pm. I just want to not yell-I'm a yeller. So maybe I need to take that mustard seed necklace and remind myself to keep the faith and remember the promises that were made to me in the Temple and every time I take the Sacrament on Sunday. I need to have faith in the bigger picture and just love and appreciate my family.
So on that note: Happy Birth Mother's Day and Happy Mother's Day!